My daughter is six.
About a month ago, she started insisting on sleeping with her bedroom door open. She said a woman had been coming to see her at night, and apparently, the woman didn't like the door being closed.
At first, I didn't think much of it. She's six. Kids make up all kinds of things.
But then one morning, she asked me if I'd ever been pregnant before I had her.
I honestly froze.
Seven years ago, before my daughter was born, I lost a pregnancy. It was a really hard time for me, and I blamed myself for a long time.
I barely ever talk about it. And I'd definitely never told my daughter.
When I asked how she knew, she said the woman who visited her at night had told her.
That's when I started getting seriously freaked out.
I stopped letting her sleep alone for a while.
One night, I woke up and found her sitting up in bed, smiling at the bedroom doorway.
I looked over. Nobody was there.
But then the motion-sensor light in the hallway came on.
A few seconds later, the light by the stairs came on too.
It was like someone had just walked out of our room and headed downstairs.
The next day, I put one of the protective paper talismans I'd bought from this website beside her bed.
I'm not usually the type to do that, but honestly, I was scared too. I just wanted to feel like I was doing something.
After that, my daughter stopped talking about the woman. She also went back to sleeping with her door closed.
A few days later, I finally asked her about it again.
She said the woman had come to say goodbye, and she'd told her to tell me to stop blaming myself for what happened before.
I almost cried right there.
Because even after all these years, part of me still does.
I thought that was the end of it.
But then I asked what the woman looked like.
My daughter looked at me like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
"She looked exactly like you, Mommy."
I still don't know what to make of that.
If she really did see someone, and if it had anything to do with the baby I lost all those years ago...
Shouldn't she have seen my baby?
Why would she have seen another version of me?
